Drive A Stake Through My Heart...

Saturday, 03 October 2009

  • Violated.

    What a start for October. X_X

    Just a few hours ago, I was publicly humiliated and violated by forumers by Malaysian forum, Lowyat.NET. I have learned that forumers are terribly blunt & horny.

    I was violated & commented on anonymously by strangers from all over Malaysia (& maybe beyond Malaysia). My picture was posted from my Facebook account & my wall posts were read by the strange forumers.

    Fiq Fiq & etc. made a report about the forum post & after an hour later, the post was taken away.

    But I'm still pretty shaken up.
    I'M VERY SCARED.
    I have never been violated in this position as tonight before.
    I don't think I'll be able to sleep for another hour.
    At least I have Fiq Fiq for company at the moment.
    I don't know. I just felt like writing about it.
    So here I am - blogging at 3 in the morning. Afraid of going to bed.

    Gosh, I hate forumers.
    This experience has totally gave me a new perspective of forums.
    Why do they love violating people?
    I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO THEM.
    I don't know why Wayne likes forumers so much. >_<

    Tonight has been a night full of surprises.
    Plus, I dropped the F-bomb about a dozen times tonight after seeing myself on the forum.

Monday, 28 September 2009

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    Viva La Cobra
    By Cobra Starship
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    He's Gorgeous...And He Wants Me To Know It.

    He brought a chair over to the front of the class and plopped next to my seat. He was incredibly close to me - resting his elbow on my desk - and our elbows were touching and occasionally bumping into each other. He reached over and played with my stationary on my desk - clicking and spinning my pens in his thin fingers.
    Both of us were silent.
    Then he said, "How was your holidays?"
    I looked at him and saw him staring back at me. His hands remained playing with my pens, but the look he bore on his face showed that he expected an answer and that he hadn't asked that just for fun.
    "It was okay, I guess," I answered awkwardly. I shifted in my seat. Hell, how I hated feeling so awkward in his presence. Whenever I'm consumed by awkward-ness, I would either trip or mumble my words.

    Something bad was mostly likely chanced to happen whenever I felt awkward next to him...

    "I didn't go anywhere or anything..." I continued. "Went out on outings, visited the local malls - stuff like that. You?"
    He placed my pen down. "I didn't do much either," he said.
    Now it was my turn to keep the ball rolling.
    "You went to some showcase, didn't you? I saw the pictures you uploaded on your Facebook," I said with interest. DAMN, did that came out a bit stalker-ish?
    His eyes lit up at the mention of the showcase. He smiled his incredible gorgeous smile and leaned in closer with as much interest as I had. "Yeah, I did," he confirmed proudly. "I was part of the showcase. Did you like he pictures I posted?"
    Wow, I hadn't expected a verbal comment. "Yeah, I did," I said. I had to secretly stop myself from revealing about how gorgeous I thought he looked in those pictures. "The pictures were quite yellow though...cause of the lighting. But overall, I thought they were nice." Well, I might as well be honest.
    He took a while to respond to my comment. Then he said, "But do you like them? Do you like my profile picture? Isn't it nice?"
    Was he indirectly complimenting himself?

    He's gorgeous...and he wants me to know it.

    Oh well. I decided to just agree with him. I mean, I ALREADY think he's gorgeous. So I said, "Yeah, it totally is." Then added, "I thought the lights in the background were amazing. They really made the photography complete."
    To be honest, I hadn't meant to squashed his ego... Although he was AMAZINGLY GORGEOUS in his profile picture, I was stating my opinion on the WHOLE picture, and to just compliment HIM (which was probably what he wanted) would be giving my secret all away.
    And I couldn't let him know that I think he's gorgeous. :]

    SUBJECT CHANGE.
    "Hey, can I ask you for a favor?" he asked. He smiled sweetly at me that I couldn't tell exactly what it was he was going to ask me.
    But it got me saying "Yes?" anyway.
    "Can you bring your iPod to school tomorrow?"
    I stopped awkwardly staring at him. "What...?" I said. I had heard him the first time, but my mind had trouble wrapping around what he has just asked.
    "I'm wondering if I could borrow your iPod for when I go to the public tomorrow," he said. He gleamed at me with his beautiful eyes as he waited for an answer.
    I gulped.

    He only wants me for my iPod...?

    I hesitated. I've never trusted someone with my iPod for a WHOLE day before. What if he loses it? What if an accident happens? What if, what if, what if-?
    "Erm..." I couldn't find a way to reject his proposal SWEETLY. I do hope he wasn't one of those overly sensitive guys. "Sorry, but no." I smiled as sweetly as I could, hoping he wouldn't take my rejection in stride. I scrambled for an excuse.
    "I couldn't possibly live through a day without my iPod," I laughed.
    He returned a laugh. "That's okay." Then he turned to his work and continued jolting.

    And that was my hour of satisfaction today. LOL

Thursday, 17 September 2009

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    Hot Mess
    By Cobra Starship
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    Walking In The Rain. :]

    So, before Physics tuition started today (at 2pm, let's not forget), I followed Angeline & Rachel to 1 Utama.
    Angeline wanted to shop for some things at GIRLS (Old Wing) & I wanted to have my fave Shihlin XXL chicken for lunch.
    So we walked to 1 Utama through the outdoor carpark & reached to the Old Wing at 1:30pm. What took even longer was that I had to WAIT for my chicken to fry. =_=

    So we were late & only left 1 Utama at 1:55pm.

    And at the last minute; at the side of the auto doors, we saw that it was RAINING HEAVILY. O_O
    HELL NO!
    I suggested we take a cab, but they were short on cash.
    So we walked in the rain - across the whole outdoor carpark where we came from.
    And damn, it was FUN. :] I never got to walk in the rain before (with a real protective mum & all), so I was actually enjoying it today! LOL

    We were totally soaked when we reached the school curb. x]
    My glasses were blocked with so much rain drops, I had to wipe them on kai's sleeve. *Thanks Kai* LOL
    Rachel went home after that; Angeline & I made our way to the classroom where we had to attend our Physics tuition (we were about 15 minutes late then).
    And SHIT, I looked horrible after walking in the rain. X_X My hair was soaked, my shoes made squishy sounds cause they had water in them, & my baju kurung (uniform) was partially see through.
    SEXYBACK, ANYONE? :]

    People were totally staring when Angeline & I got back to class. O_O
    I sat next to Abi on SOMEONE ELSE'S SEAT - so I ended up soaking someone else's seat instead of mine. x]
    Hardly even paid attention to the Physics sheets anyway.
    I've PRETENDED to understand Physics for more than half a year, so I didn't have a problem PRETENDING to understand Physics today in class. =_= LOL

    At least I was slightly drier after an hour of sitting under the fan at the back of the class. =]
    Dry enough for my dad not to notice. LOL

    Rainy Cloud (white)

Monday, 14 September 2009

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    By Boys Like Girls
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    Frog Dissection during Biology. :]

    Gosh, I was looking forward to this for a whole week now! LOL It's not like I've never dissected a frog before, but the ones I dissected a few months ago were TINY = boring & not very gory. =_=
    Today's dissection was a blast. =] We had a total of 7 frogs (bought from the market) in a bucket - the top was covered with a plastic wrapping with holes poked through it. x]
    Biology wasn't till the 9th period, & when everyone gathered outside the lab, the frogs started jumping wildly - as if it knew at that exact moment that it would meet its demise at the hands of teenagers. O_O They jumped so wildly that they made a huge hole on the plastic covering on the top & they were hopping all over the floor after that. x] The girls were screaming while the guys struggled to catch them back - but damn, they were really slippery & gooey. LOL You had to squeeze them tight when you had your hands on them or they'll just slip out of your grasp.

    The first thing we did was to dump them into a container. Cotton was soaked with chloroform & then it was thrown into the container with the frogs. All the air holes were closed. The frogs bounced (bounced?) around wildly for a few minutes before they slumped unconscious on top of each other. x]

    Since there wasn't enough scalpels, gloves & tools, only 5 frogs were used & everyone was divided into groups.
    Being an antisocial, I waited in a corner till someone asked me to join their group. X_X
    So I grouped with Leon, Sean & Oscar. And even better, I got to be the photographer for the dissection. :] I didn't bring my camera today, but I used Leon's since he insisted. I took a total of 250+ shots, but later reduced them to 175.

    So, these shots are from Leon's camera. :]

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    Oscar, Leon & Sean.

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    The frog was pinned & the first incision was made on the outer skin to separate the skin from the muscles below.

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    The heart was removed, & it was still beating! O_O It was left beating for a few minutes before it gave out. You could see it rising & falling. AWESOME. x]

    Sometimes, halfway through the dissection, the frogs may become conscious again & start trashing around wildly. O_O You had to knock it out with chloroform again.

    After everyone identified the organs, they began more unnecessary dissecting . x]

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    Right down to its core. O_O

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    The people who dissected... :]
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    Okay, I know this can be ruled as ANIMAL CRUELTY or etc.
    And if that's the case, please keep all insults, remarks or complains whatsoever to yourself.
    Please.
    I'm just the photographer/blogger. :]

    These frogs were either going to be cooked into stew/porridge anyway.

Sunday, 13 September 2009

  • New York New York Deli in 1 Utama.

    We were sorta tired of the usual restaurants we go to for dinner nearly every weekend, so we opted for something new tonight.
    Walking all the way to 1 Utama's new NEW wing (haha, they expanded 3 times), we found this restaurant called 'New York New York Deli'. =]
    They served pretty good western food.

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    I went for their 1/2 cheesy chicken, french fries with sour cream & pink guava juice.
    Joey ordered pasta & hot chocolate.
    And for desert, Mum, Joey & I had a chocolate fondue with

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    My pink guava juice, cheesy chicken & french fries in sour cream. x]


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    Joey's pasta & hot chocolate. :]

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    And finally, various fruits & snacks dipped dark chocolate fondue for dessert. x]

    Sorry if my shots weren't so great this time - the lighting in that place sucked. X_X

  • Currently
    Dark Calling (Demonata Book 9) (Import)
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    Outing With ML!

    ML & I made plans to hang out & walk around 1 Utama today.
    We met up at about 12:30pm for lunch at Dave's Deli (old wing), then we merely walked around & talked.
    I haven't seen her in months, so I was glad we did a lot of cathing up. :]
    It was so much fun. Much fun I've had for quite a while.


    ML & I. =]

    Shots of the Hari Raya decorations of 1 Utama:







    Before ML left, we went to Coffee Bean for a few minutes to have a drink. =]
    Pure Chocolate for me; Banana Chocolate for her.




    ML. x]

    Originally, I had RM100 with me. But after paying for lunch, Coffee Bean, a new necklace I bought, & Darren Shan's new Demonata series: DARK CALLING, I was eventually broke at the end of the day. =[

    But the day out was so worth it. =]
    Thanks ML!
    Hope to hang out again another time.


Thursday, 10 September 2009

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    Lenka
    By Lenka
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    Lunch Before Physics Tuition.

    As usual, there's a Physics tuition for my class every Thursday. It starts at 2pm - so we only have 50 minutes to eat lunch after school ends.
    Normally, I'd be stuck in school eating the canteen food - by myself.
    But not today.

    I shuffled my feet nervously outside the classroom door. My hands were gripping the knobs tightly; awkwardly.
    "Are you sure you can't come?" I asked my deskmate.
    "You know I can't," he said. "I have to be in the mosque every Thursday."
    "But it's going to be so awkward..." I whined. I sneaked a glance at the gorgeous guy, then back to my best friend.
    He sighed. "Isn't this suppose to be the best day of your life or something?" he responded. "You're having lunch with HIM."
    "Yeah, with FIVE other guys!" I whispered harshly. "I'm the only girl!"
    "It wouldn't make a difference if I came," he replied. "You'll still be the only girl."
    "It'd be less awkward if you came..." I said.
    "You'll be fine," he finished.

    So me + 6 other guys walked to the little cafe outside our school for lunch. I had to admit, IT WAS AWKWARD - but I didn't let it show.
    The guys ordered fried rice while I settled for a mango smoothie - which, I might add, TOOK AGES TO COME! I wasn't hungry; plus, I was afraid of how long it would take for me to finish my meal. LOL
    It was cause of me that we arrived for tuition late...and cause the guys wanted extra rounds of pool. x]

    Finally, the bill came. I got down from his chair and went over next to him to look at the total amount: RM39. He scanned his amount to pay, then placed RM10 on the tray. I scanned to see how much my smoothie cost and found that it wasn't charged. MY SMOOTHIE WASN'T INCLUDED IN THE BILL.
    "They didn't add my mango smoothie," I whispered to him.
    I took my wallet out. It didn't feel right not sharing the bill, and as I was about to put RM5 (that was how much my smoothie cost) on the tray, he stopped me.
    "No need," he whispered back. "Keep your wallet."
    "Really?" I asked.
    He nodded, then turned to his friends to recieve their share of the bill.

    Only 4 of us remained on our walk back to school. The guys were aching to climb over the school wall as a shortcut, but I refused. One of them even threw over the canteen chair as a boost for me, but I still didn't want to. LOL
    So in the end, the THREE of us took the long way of walking AROUND the wall to the outside hole in the school fence. x]

    It was really nice of him to not abandon me outside the wall. x] He's gorgeous and sweet. LOL

    And so, we arrived to tuition 30 minutes late.

Wednesday, 09 September 2009

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    By Fireflight
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    Vandalism Punishment.

    Today was boring cause BOTH gorgeous guys were absent today. =[
    It was so boring, I grew a pair of invisible fangs & sucked the dignity out of my best friend (like you can prove it!). LOL

     

    Haha. No, my entire school hours don’t revolve around GORGEOUS GUYS. x] I’m better than that.

     

    Today sucked cause my class got called out during assembly. And this time, it wasn’t a warning/order to clean our class (we’re known for being kinda messy). It was cause of VANDALISM.

    Someone we all know broke the bottom part of the class plastic chair (where your ass goes) & put it under the teacher’s desk – but no teacher sat on it, thank goodness.
    But the entire class got in trouble for it anyway. =_=

    We were left sitting on the assembly grounds till one of us confesses or speaks up. The teachers even put on a ‘Good Cop, Bad Cop’ routine – which was fun to secretly laugh at, I guess. x]
    I guess we sat there for about 15-20 minutes till two people finally cracked as witnesses.
    The guy who gave us all the shit was absent in school today.
    Whatever. =_=

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    He Makes An Impact In Me. =]

    It’s amazing how he does it. No doubt, without fail, HE MANAGES TO DO IT.
    He manages to make me think about him uncontrollably.

     

    Every day, every time: All he has to do is something special that makes me think about it every continuing second that follows.
    He makes everything effortless, & I’ll effortlessly think about him.

    Despite all the negative things that he has done, he still swoons me.

    Even when he’s not around, I still find myself thinking about what he’s doing or how he’s feeling.

     

    It’s amazing how HUGE an impact he makes on me.

     

    It’s a mystery. <3


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Tuesday, 08 September 2009

tm_AngelAntiSocial

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    • Name: TM
    • Birthday: 4/3/1993
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 6/29/2008

TM The Antisocial

  • Antisocial. Introvert. Heartbroken. Depressed. Suicidal. Lonely. Loves writing in her journal. Heartbroken songwriter/poet. Loves photographing fire, water, lights, etc. Sadist blogger. Reads about Sawney Bean. Currently has no purpose to continue living but does so anyway.

She's A Dreamer =]

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  • tm_AngelAntiSocial
    Emo?
  • Sentoshi
    Why so emo~ *tries to act compassionate but fails*
  • x_xLostSoulx_x
    Are u still on9? I need to talk to u.
  • tm_AngelAntiSocial
    I will. x] LMAO
  • x_xLostSoulx_x
    Update, UPDATE!!! XD
  • catsruletheworld_meow
    "Loving someone is giving them the power to hurt you, but trusting them not to". Anonymous
  • tm_AngelAntiSocial
    It is better to have loved and lost than not been loved at all.
  • ReachingToTheSky
    "You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it."
  • tm_AngelAntiSocial
    Love is patient, love is kind. Love means slowly losing your mind.

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